Sometimes i really hate talking to my brother. Talking to him is like talking to the wall. Whenever he is using his laptop and id be like asking something, he takes fucking 5 seconds to realize that im actually standing there looking at him. And he goes huh? So i have to bloody repeat myself and i bloody hate repeating myself to some computer addict. GEEZ it happens all the time. He really gets on my nerves. But i owe him 50 bucks, i cant scream at him, right? He is such a computer addict, in jc now, and doesnt even use his money. He could give them to me and i could save lives -my life, that is. Tsk boys being boys. Speaking of which, i owe my other brother a gooood 80 bucks. I might have to clean his room for him soon, which i hope will never ever ever happen cause i just found some dead fishes lying under his table. I kid you not. The fishes jumped out and he didnt even realize wtf! There was about 4 or 5. eeeeeeew now i know where that stench was coming from. But! he is like 24 this year?? I mean he is working and everything, 80 bucks is nothing to him right! No? Sigh.. i am a sad cow.

On a happier note, i skipped my gce o level chinese papr today. And i enever felt this good. I cant speak mandarin for shit. Im tired of all the f9s so im finally taking basic chinese. Dont come lecturing me, ive had enough of, ' eh come on la just try will die is it?' yes i will fucking die thanks. My china teacher knows whats best for me. Hahaaa SOo0oooo, this guy from my school(?) called me at 8ish? I couldnt even open my eyes.

him: * talking to someone else*
me: hellooo................
him: *STILL TALKING TO SOMONE ELSE*
me: hello?
me: EH HELLOOOO *damn, tap tap tap the end call button* 

He called 3times, the second time there was no sound, third time, i didnt answer. Screw him.

Ok i need to do some house chores for my mom.
Bye!

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Ok i was literally laughing to myself whilst uploading all the old photos. The ones at the top are the oldest i guess? Secondary 2 or so.. My hair was fucking short i know! I'm pretty sure that there are still some hidden files somewhere. haha. I know we were like so uncool but WE ARE SO TOTALLY COOL NOW OK HEHE. Trisha and Wanyin i miss you guys~ Please don't abandon me! :(

Hahaah ok sorry its like 0330am now. And i'm not going to school tomorrow cause i'm cool like that.

Happy 24th Birthday brother!~
not like he's gonna see this anyway...

Anyways, my brother is back in sg! I think he bought some stuff for me. Hope he doesn't come back with the swine flu. Speaking of which, why the f- is everyone boycotting pork?!! You won't f-get swine flu from eating pork!! beeeeetchhhh

SO having more pork.

x

What the fuck is wrong with the weather! I have been taking a taxi home from school this entire week. The heat is just unbearable, really. And i really really hate the sun. But i guess i will have to endure the heat next week, or i will have no money left. Hope the weather will be cooler next week. Or i might just be tempted to take the taxi again. Hahaa..

Anyways..
I realised how UNCOOL i was spazzing out after hearing my name on the radio. So.. I decided to delete that part of the entry.. if you haven't already noticed. Well.. because i'm cool like that.

p.s: I just heard my name on radio again!

Geez people, so uncool..
:)

xxx

 

I skipped school today.. Well i can't eat seafood. I had them yesterday and this morning i woke up with a stinging feeling at my neck. I was like, Shit. So.. my whole neck is like redish now. Pretty good reason to absent myself from school hehh. Oh and this morning was so horrible. I took my towel and went to the toilet. There was thunder and it rained. I was more like ' Oooo! its raining!!' instead of ' Shucks.. how am i gonna get to school' And there was a blackout while i was bathing! I stood there, naked, and went 'MUMMYYY' with my super high pitched voice. Can you imagine... it was pitch dark and the rain wasn't helping. So i figured that it wasn't a good day for me..

It was so fucking hot the last 2 days and the aircon in my parents room had to leak. If they can't turn it on, i can't turn it on too. Their so called 'rule in the house' So there's people in my house now, fixing the aircon. My dad has the whole pond covered with the black rubbish bags. So my balcony is pretty screwed up now!

Hmm.. my album better arrive tomorrow.. 

 

Sometimes i get this weird feeling which bothers me, a lot. This 'emptiness' some would say. Having a heavy heart for no particular reason. Being able to laugh in the existence of everyone. However, feeling 'empty' when alone. I feel like i am missing something in life and results me in thinking about something insignificant or rather, something i cannot describe or pen down in words. One cannot miss something he or she never possessed. Like how a blind man cannot 'miss' looking at his own reflection. Only a man who losses his ability to see things later in life can miss it. So..  what am i missing? I am always dwelling on my thoughts. Further complicating my already perplexed mind. I don't know what is it and i will never know..i dont wish to know.
I just need to know that someone out there feels the same way too..

Pardon me for this weird structured post, haven't blogged for a long time.
 

p/s : I took that picture.. did some editing